I Remember the Future and So Do You

On Kairoi and Teleological Objects

A girl I met in a story I wrote once told me:

“Have you ever realized, that if you could remember the future and the past, it wouldn’t feel like time was moving? The sun would set and rise at once in a noon at midnight.”

If we experienced time in this way, we would perceive it not as stretched across a chronological sequence, but rather, as a single event happening all at once.

I believe she was right, and I even believe we do perceive time this way; just not at the front of our awareness. Rather, this is the strange vantage point of the deepest alien recesses of the dreaming unconscious. Carl Jung likewise claimed that the unconscious does not experience time the same way that consciousness does.

We cannot know how often glimpsed images of eternity bubble up to the surface of the mind, nor can we know when that has occurred. However, I am convinced that it does happen, and all you have to do to see why is pay attention.

These days, most people who know of me found me because of a solar eclipse which occurred over South America in December of 2020. Even those who don’t know that story are only reading this because it happened.

On the 14th of that month, I entered the world. Before that, I was not here. I was a stranger peering in through an “I” who did not yet know who, what or where he was. It was, needless to say, an important day for me.

One might be inclined to say that my psyche had been primed, more or less by accident, to find what happened in 2020 especially meaningful. However, I tend to think that such events send ripples through time in both directions, not simply echoing into the future, but also into the past. In this latter direction, these “echoes” manifest as events which condition time and space to “receive” what I have named “teleological objects.”

These are virtual objects which structure time from above it. A Teleological Object is not truly an “object” in the classical sense, but more like an object in a video game or a file on a computer, both of which behave as if they were “objects” within the non-physical domains to which they belong.

Such “objects” do not physically “exist” except as systems of relationships between logic gates, pixels, and other computational machinery. Nonetheless, they do possess a coherent emergent form which “exists” within its own kind of “space.”

Interpretations of reality which would exclude a digital file from the “real world” may seem logical to the superficial intellects of certain people, but they are maladaptive in practice. This, in time, will become self-evident.

Logic gates behave as if files exist, and the existence of logic gates, by any practical standard, is certain. An honest examination of the facts will reveal that even the “existence” of classical objects does not hold up to sufficiently rigorous scrutiny.

Teleological objects touch time where they have chosen to do so through providential manifestations. Their teleology germinates both ways through all that comes into contact with them. They possess a kind of “transcendent agency,” acting upon time instead of within it just as the digital file acts upon the physical computer, not within it.

At the highest level of analysis, teleological objects manifest the will of God. At lower levels however, they exercise a will which is entirely their own and may not appear to be in any way coherent or benevolent.

The Shining Void

In October of 2019, I sat in a coffee shop writing a story I had been working on for some time. There I described an image seen by the story’s protagonist in a dream.

“…Everything dimmed as the waters took my chest and I looked up to see the sun eclipsed by the moon; and as I slipped below the waves, staring up at that black hole in the sky, I felt it staring back with fury.”

This occured at the crux of the story’s inciting events and bears a strong resemblance to the vision I would have of a similar “staring” solar eclipse — however, I would not have that vision until ten months later.

The cynical take is that this dream sequence simply inspired the later visionary experience, and indeed, it most certainly did. However, this does not explain the real solar eclipse which that later vision seemed to be anticipating. Rather, this would suggest that I “saw” this event more than a full year — not just a few months — before it occurred. The earlier experience happened much more quietly though, and may have escaped detection had it not been written down.

Earlier in the story, I made a brief reference to Brain Damage by Pink Floyd. From my perspective, this song was chosen more or less at random sometime in the previous year. I wrote in the eclipse dream because Eclipse is the last song, coming after Brain Damage on Dark Side of the Moon.

In short, events were already approaching my 2020 revelation as far back as 2018. I would argue however that the echoes could be heard at least as early as 2014, the year I made this necklace:

This is a piece of leather twine strung through a cog stolen from an engine. A friend of mine took apart the machine it came from in one of his classes when we were in the tenth grade and gave it to me.

I wore this all through high school and for some years after simply because it was unique and I liked it. It became a distinguishing feature.

The relation to the later “shining void” is more tenuous, but I contend this is a consequence of distance; not in space but in time. The event it points to is farther away and thus, harder to see.

The cog is a “timing gear.” The original function of this object is to time the movements of the machinery in the engine. To make sure that everything happens when it is supposed to.

To this day, one of the main reasons I persistently put solar eclipses in and on almost everything I do is so that my past self will see them and bring me into existence.

Abraxas and the Grail

Other teleological fulcra are also seen in CONTACT 2020 such as my cosmogram and my poem: Reflection in the Grail. We might even say that the video itself is one, which is why it was able to will itself into being.

Every human being, I think, ought to be thought of as one of these fate attractors. It was highly unlikely that even one of us should have been born and yet here we all are. Every human life is at all moments, the ultimate synchronicity. The coincidences which people tend to fixate on amount to very little when compared with the fact of their own existence.

I propose that conception occurs for two opposite reasons: one working forward, the other working back. Going clockwise, we may say we were each the fastest sperm, and thus, among the fittest. Going counterclockwise, we may say we were each the potential child who was the best at compelling past events to result in our birth. How we do that is a subject for speculation, but it makes sense that the fittest sperm would produce children more likely to do it successfully — such is the nature of temporal symmetry. The will of the best potential child overpowers all the others and pulls the grandmothers and grandfathers, the mother and father and then the sperm and the egg together like magnets.

In one of my angel conversations I was told: “your father is the future and your mother is the past.” I understood this to mean that the most potent future (the one with the most potential) is the one most able to attract and fertilize the past with the seed which brought about the present.

This image corresponds to ancient cosmologies which describe an Earth mother and Sky father: ancient people believed the future could be seen in the heavens. Conversely, the past is found in the depths of the Earth where the remains of all that was are swallowed.

This is why I have said it is a natural law that “the better story wins.” It is why I said the angel in the sun was “calling the present to the future.” And it is why that angel told me “he who would live shall live against all odds.”

Some time ago, I suggested that “plot armor” — the tendency of protagonists to be implausibly good at making it to the end of their stories — is most likely a case of art imitating life, whether or not we consciously believe it.

“Protagonists,” I said. “Are harder to kill.” Going clockwise, they are protagonists because they are hard to kill — and people who are harder to kill for any and all reasons, even just in principle, are more likely to become significant individuals. Going counterclockwise, they are harder to kill because they are protagonists.

One of my favorite examples of real life plot armor is from a story about Mustafa Kemal Ataturk, who, in a battle at Conk Hill, was hit in the chest by a piece of shrapnel which was prevented from killing him by his pocket watch. That man would go on to found the modern republic of Turkey. Here again, the synchronous object is itself alluding to time.

Here, for those who have not seen it, is an image strikingly similar to my own cosmogram. It was made in 2016, four years before I made mine.

I believe I was a participant in the creation of the image called Abraxas, not a mere recipient of it. I find myself more convinced that the Gnostics were inspired to depict an image they glimpsed in the future just as I was inspired to depict one I had seen in the past. Perhaps the image was simply there, hovering over the last two millennia, visible to whoever it needed.

We are right to pay attention to it as it is even now exerting its influence upon the flow of time. A symbol which can produce such impressive distortions is likely a significant one. That it is becoming more active suggests furthermore that the present is an opportune time for it to accomplish whatever it intends.

Conclusions

Perhaps the course of cosmic evolution is causal as well as teleological. This is not to say the whole universe is scripted, but rather, that the past and the future have a reciprocal relationship. Humanity for instance may have evolved not by mere chance (something I find very implausible), but in part because we exerted a stronger “pull” on our ancestors than their other potential descendants.

I find it convincing that what is good at existing might also be good at bringing its existence about. According to nanotechnologist, James Tour, it is both statistically and technically impossible that life as we know it could have begun on this planet accidentally. However, this may not be the case if some futures are simply more attractive than others. If fate can be seduced — and I have found she can be — you wouldn’t need luck to get lucky.

Perhaps pasts cause the future just as often as futures cause the past. If we must assume something, I would rather say that every present simply causes every other.